okay, so i'm posting this today, but i wrote it yesterday (as i was pretty wound up about it then) and could only take the pictures today. therefore leading to passionate writing AND pictures, yay!
right. i am beyond annoyed. because in the past two weeks i have had at least six comments on my weight. now let me get this straight, i am a UK dress size 8 (US size 6). the average UK dress size is 16. average! that would make me four sizes below average. i am also underweight for my height. it also means that if i dropped only three dress sizes, i would equate to a US size 0. that is THE size 0. the one that some modeling companies are banned from employing because of the health risks.
so, WHY am i getting comments stating that i am 'fat' and 'overweight'?! seriously?! you have to be kidding me.
now, obviously, i am not going to start starving myself. originally i dismissed the comments as a malicious possibly jealous attempt at crushing my self-esteem. now, several more comments later, it's not surprising that i am becoming rather concerned. not just for myself either. if the average size is a 16, what do these inconsiderate people think of them? they are in for one mighty shock.
i have always liked my body. and often felt guilty for doing so. granted, if a magical genie appeared and asked if i would like a flatter stomach, i would jump at the opportunity. but since that isn't going to happen anytime soon, i am more than happy with my looks. there are days when i look terrible and feel it too. and then there are days when i just feel perfect. and i've always felt guilty for liking my body, when people (especially teenagers) are so naive, believing that you have to be a beautiful person. i don't care if i'm not classed as a beautiful person, because more often than not; i feel beautiful. saying it like this makes me sound really arrogant, trust me, that is not what i am going for here.
i have always liked my body. and often felt guilty for doing so. granted, if a magical genie appeared and asked if i would like a flatter stomach, i would jump at the opportunity. but since that isn't going to happen anytime soon, i am more than happy with my looks. there are days when i look terrible and feel it too. and then there are days when i just feel perfect. and i've always felt guilty for liking my body, when people (especially teenagers) are so naive, believing that you have to be a beautiful person. i don't care if i'm not classed as a beautiful person, because more often than not; i feel beautiful. saying it like this makes me sound really arrogant, trust me, that is not what i am going for here.now what?
did i have warped vision for thinking i looked beautiful? or is it warped now, when i think i look horrid?
this is the dress i bought on friday for the smart/casual buffet i am attending. i think it's fair to say i am more than a little nervous wearing this now. but i paid good money for it. it fits. and nothing could stop me from wearing it. screw them, they're not going to get to me that much. i'm a lot stronger than that. i just wish people would think about their remarks sometimes, because this is the kind of thing that leads to eating disorders.
this is the dress i bought on friday for the smart/casual buffet i am attending. i think it's fair to say i am more than a little nervous wearing this now. but i paid good money for it. it fits. and nothing could stop me from wearing it. screw them, they're not going to get to me that much. i'm a lot stronger than that. i just wish people would think about their remarks sometimes, because this is the kind of thing that leads to eating disorders.
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BEAUTIFUL DRESS!<33
lol, Car, i absolutely love your enthusiasm!
After reading your blog I had to stop myself from having a weep. I am a dress size 12/14 and am getting better at loving myself for who I am. To find that there are pathetic people out there who call a size 8 fat makes me and angry and upset at the same time. Imagine what happens if they met me! You wear what you want because you look great in that dress!
thank you so much Daisy. That's a better reaction than I could have ever hoped for.
It just goes to show what kind of perspective some people have, and how truely demoralizing it is. Such a shame. This generations views of beauty have been so twisted out of shape.
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