a bunch of loose ends

i may have sounded ungrateful for that offer in my last blog. i really wasn't. i genuinely loved the fact that they liked my writing so much they contacted me. however, after researching the company i could see they wanted to point me in a different direction than what i currently wish to go in. i just felt it wasn't right for me.

in the meantime, i have work tomorrow! which i really am looking forward to. i miss my work friends so much. Laura and Emma are so lovely to be around. and i haven't seen them in two weeks. although it feels like months.

i have finished my induction period of college now. two weeks down, one-hundred and two to go!...

my to-do list this coming weekend consists of:

• buying The Best Friend a birthday present.
• reading Frankenstein - which i was supposed to read like a month ago, oops.
• writing a monologue from the point of view of someone who is alienated.
• analyse a clip of The Bill (crappy uk television show about cops).
• revise for maths test.

what i want to do is:

• read some YA fiction.
• write creatively.
• sit on the field outside my house til it's pitch black and i am freezing to death with a friend.

but they don't look like they're going to happen. *sigh*

and, look how cold it is! wednesday i came home from college looked out my window and there were no leaves on the tree in my front garden. how is this?! i swear it was summer yesterday. and now it's practically winter. i don't know where the time is going. i really really don't.

i currently have this picture, as my background, just to remind me of warmer times.

on that note, today is exactly three months til christmas. feel free to send me presents <3

ps. i mentioned a song called 'Us' by Regina Spektor yesterday. i haven't stopped listening to it since. it's more inspiring than anything i have ever come across before. it is love.