update: i hate boys.

so the other day, i was sad. today i'm hyper. and kind of angry, in a good way.

firstly, hellooooo! i don't feel i treat you like i treat other humans - or you know, a massive electronic thing which has swept the globe dominating everything ever, ie, the internet - but i sometimes feel like i should use the stereotypical conversational rules just to make you more comfortable, and to make it a tiny bit more personal. like i'm talking to you. yes, you.
anyway. for those who actually care; my oreo truffles went down a storm. i got the recipe here. go and make them, they look uber weird but taste so incredibly good.
now, recently i've had this strange... i don't want to use the word feeling again in this post, although, it's the only one which fits. and now i know what it is. it's like the second i became/become a "college student" there's this stereotype of 'you must have a job, you must have a boyfriend, you must look perfect and if you're not smart you will just die'. and i want to make it clear, that i do not want that.

ever.

i mean, i want to be smart and good at school, and i love my job. but that is not all that i am. i am not a geek. i work hard on my appearance too. i really love going for a run, and doing my hair and make-up and shopping. the only thing i really don't want the hassle of right now is "the boyfriend". there's only so much i can do. it's not what i consider a necessity, and after reading such experiences on a fellow bloggers blog, it is painful. and when i have so much else going on, everything has to be prioritized, and unfortunately one has to go. the others are too important really. nevertheless, i never rule things out completely, and for some reason i'm almost, angry at boys. because i know the minute i get to college i'm going to melt into this girly mess fluttering eyelashes, tossing hips and flicking hair. and it makes me so angry that the mere presence of cute adorable guys makes me into this.

gahhhhhhh.

it's not all bad. i kinda like it.