too much sick, too little sleep

It's 2:30am here in Hampshire, England and I think it's safe to say I
won't be going to college today!

So I managed all of about 40 minutes sleep before waking up. Now I
feel horrid and will possibly barf sometime during this post. Be
prepared, that's all I'm saying.

My friend was ill at college like two days ago, so I'm going to say
it's either a bug which is going round, or exhaustion is beating me
like we're in a domesticly violent relationship.

I was saying earlier on twitter how I wish I could just sleep through
Thursdays. I don't like them at all basically. Now it's like "be
careful what you wish for" well screw you thursday. I'm not gonna take
your crap. And I'm going to lie in bed all day (if my parents let me).

I don't see why they won't let me. After four hours maximum sleep I'm
going to look like Herman Munster anyway. And I feel like I'm going to
hurl. So that's pleasant.

Sure, I feel bad about letting some of my classmates down, but I'm
pretty sure they don't want to have to wake me up/clean my vomit off
their shoes.

And I have sooo much work to catch up on at home too.

Okay, I have to go control my gag reflex - sorry if this post was tmi.
You know I only do it because I trust you guys.

xo

Ps. I made it to the end without hurling! Aren't you proud of me?

amazing things that happened to me

you guyyyssss.

i love you all so much.
honestly. can you feel my love for you?
it's radiating out of the screen at your face.
embrace it.

i've been getting such sweet comments lately. like really sweet, wonderful bits of text that make me blush ever so slightly. i know it's important to have friends who you can physically talk to face to face and touch - in a non perverted way, jeez - but, sometimes, i would give them up for you guys. all three of them.

haha, seriously though.
i love you.

and because i love you.
let me share with you some of the amazing things that happened to me today.

1. i woke up to an email sent last night from Miss Daisy Bruce - we live so far away but we're such good friends. she's adorable, writes so well and honestly, i don't know what i'd do without her.
   
2. some beautiful aforementioned comments on here. (ily) and on my dailybooth. AND a twitter @ reply from owlssayhooot (Kayley from 5awesomegirls - youtubers, you know her right? if you don't... you are not a youtuber.)
3. this last thing i'm not sure i'm allowed to share. but since you're all such brilliant followers...

my boss at work - who is like an older sister to me - is pregnant.

guys, meet baby peanutpeanut is just a temporary name until they know if it's a boy or a girl.

but how exciting is this?! i nearly cried in media, i was just that happy/excited/overcome. it was so unexpected, and so wonderful.

i hope i'm appointed chief babysitter.

this also means i can pretty much say goodbye to my summer, as i'm going to work the entire time. i don't mind though. it's for a good reason. and look how friggen cute it is.

i can't wait to go to work on saturday.
i've been ridiculously hyper over this all day.

xo

ps. give me another good day tomorrow; leave some more cute in the comments!

long hair?!

hey blogger!

wasssuppp?

okay, just a quick one tonight - because i'm working my butt off for college. seriously.
yesterday i churned out four pages of maths, marked it, and reworked most of my answers. i have a mock test on friday which i really need to do some studying for.
and i produced five hand written pages on the first section of In Cold Blood - the novel i'm studying for english lit, i am actually reading this one. it's really good, if not a little terrifying.
i also have maths coursework due in this week. that's going to be interesting.
along with two italian assignments.
and a huge chunk of coursework for drama and theatre studies - we were given this on friday.

leave me comments, cheer me up?

what i really wanted to tell you, is that my hair is noticeably longer now. i'm liking this. a lot.
long hair i miss you, come back <3

i want to start running again. so i look like this again:

i was so pretty two years ago. how on earth did i not realise this then?

*sigh* hurry up christmas!

xo

please santa

yes, i didn't blog yesterday.

even though two days before i said i would blog every day up until christmas.
but what you have to understand,
is that i am a bad person.

i don't really have much to say today.
i have so much work to do tomorrow. it's crippling.
it's also gotten super cold.
but it's not snowing.
please santa?

xo

Procrastination, baby.

Morning!
I'm writing this in my free period at college because it's either that or I have to work, so hi there.

I can't express in words how tired I am. Thursdays are the worst. Have I told you this before? They are horrid, and I don't like them.

I forgot to open my advent calendar again. That's twice in three days. Damnit.

What I do like about college is that I get to hang out with people that I don't even know. Like right now, I'm sitting with a good friend from secondary school, her friend who hangs around with us sometimes and some other guy who I've never even seen! But we're all talking and
it's comfortable - which is weird considering I've never met him.

Oh college, how you confuse me
xo

23 days to go!

is it too early for a countdown?

it's to early for a countdown.

i'm going to try and blog every day until christmas eve. - expect the quality to go down considerably.
then i'll take a little break; i should be back just after new year.
i still don't know when i'll be launching my new blog.
which is infuriating because it's coming along so well, and i'm really freaking excited, and i want to launch it to everyone.
and i realise the first few months will be slow, and gruelling, and i really am starting pretty much from scratch.
but i want it to be right when i finally launch it - i'm not even going to give you a month in which the launch will happen. everything is just that up in the air.

you can all check out my dailybooth and twitter when i launch it too. i told you it was exciting.

i'm also planning a brand new feature for it.
so much to do.
so little internet.

xo

go eat yourself

hello december!

people decided to make my day horrible. so i'm going to ignore them. they don't deserve my attention.
just one point. call me whatever you want. throw all your little insults, they will not change me. but don't you dare categorise me in the same way as those snobbish little girls at college. the girls who only care about how perfect their hair looks, and if they look grungy yet fashionable, and yes we all know that those clothes are brand new, and you starve yourself to look like that, and you don't have an ounce of realism in you. the superficial, petty, patronising, rich, vile girls. the ones with no depth. these girls are so transparent, they're practically invisible.

you think i'm a slutty, spoilt little bitch?
that's nice. go eat yourself.


tomorrow will be better. i hope.
xo

this weekend. part 2

right, where did i get to yesterday?

ah yes.

so after the hilarious swimming, we went to the pancake house. which was yummy, filling, sickly and ultimately a little disappointing. because we felt so ill.

but it was an experience nonetheless. now i can say i've been to a pancake house. - we don't get these in the UK.

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oh! and letty also has a navel piercing, and i got her to have a look at my deformity thing (don't be freaked out, info here) and she said it's infected. so i've savlon'd and bandaged up, and it's gradually getting better. i'd like to thank you for your happy thoughts. they worked!
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then i came home.
i didn't want to leave if i'm honest with you. i was having so much fun. it was like a big adventure sleepover. and going home meant going back to homework and college.

saturday night, i went over to Elly's to help her feel better and ice gingerbread biscuits. we created this:a gingerbread christmas tree, and lots of little ones! the gingerbread was delicious, although we may have added a little too much icing. so much that it made us feel very sick indeed.

that was pretty much my weekend. sunday was a sleep day.
today i constructed my advent calendar. oh yes, it's a 3D DISNEY PRINCESS one.

epic win.
xo

this weekend. part 1

hello!
i've been having fun.

so, friday evening after college, my cousins boyfriend, marcus, picked me up and we drove to Centre Parcs. as my cousins, Kayleigh and Letty, were already there.
now, i'm going to be honest with you here. i thought the whole Centre Parcs place was going to be lame. but i wanted to spend time with my cousins because life is getting in the way, and i took the opportunity, because i love them.

anyway.

there were six of us in this neat little villa. me and kayleigh shared a room, letty and her boyfriend marcus shared a room, and marcus' parents shared the other room.
and in the villa next door were some of marcus' cousins, so friday night we all hung out over there with ridiculous amounts of chinese food, some beer, and bad tv programmes.
until me and kayleigh got tired and went to bed. not before gossiping too much and having a few midnight chocolates though.

the next morning, marcus made us all this cooked breakfast. we all pretend not to like marcus, and think he's horrid and annoying. but we all know he's a sweetie. i don't know why we do that. it's just easier than actually admitting you think they're an okay person i guess?

then we caught the land train into the actual park bit to go swimming. this was just kayleigh, letty and me. letty is nearly 21 and kayleigh is my age, i don't see them enough anymore. these two are practically my sisters. i love them too much.
there was this rapids bit in the pool which we must have gone on about eight times in an hour. i have never laughed so much on a water... thing. the current was so random we were either going too fast, backwards, or not able to move at all. it was utterly hilarious.

i bought some jelly beans afterward. i discovered that i don't like them. although i'm eating them. i may be bored.

now i'm too distracted to finish this post.
i'll do it tomorrow. xo

superficial, patronising chit chat

So, I'm writing this in my media lesson, because our teacher's abandoned us, and the people I'm sat next to are about as deep as a puddle in the personality department. And after trying to be civil, I'm completely ignored. Ugh, whatever, I can do without your superficial, patronising chit chat, thanks.

Last night I had to go up to college for a parents evening. Because I'm supposedly failing drama and theatre. Which I'm not actually. They are concerned because I am working at a B/C grade when I'm supposed to be a whole B grade. It's ridiculous really.

In other news

My friend stopped over last night and we were messing around outside, when he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder - i am going somewhere with this - this isn't out of the ordinary. Until I felt a sharp pain around my navel. So the area around my navel piercing has been aching for the past few days, and I just thought it was bruised after knocking it or something. But after it hurt so much yesterday, I thought 'I've got to check this out'. So I did. And I found this swollen lump behind the piercing. Which probably isn't good.

So can you all hope that it clears up so I don't have to go to the doctors please?
Thank you!

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um, i wrote that five hours ago, and am only just getting the chance to post it.
i worked really hard on the new blog today. i can't wait to get it up and running!
xo

you look... different...

okay! you know ages ago i said i was going to change the blog to a new domain name i didn't even like and blahblahblah...

yeah, well, i backed out of that.

on account of this:

i got a domain name i actually like!

and i found out some awesome things which will make my blog change around so incredibly easy.
but for now i'm going to have to keep you gorgeous little love muffins in suspense because i want it to be a sudden big beautiful unveiling. i don't even know when it's happening but i will safely say it will be around christmas/new year time.

i hope you're all as excited as i am!

and there will be no backing out this time. i promise! xo

ps. i hope you like the temporary new look. it's a trial for the new blog!

a bad week.

i think i'm going through one of those times where it just has to be all a little crap before it can get better.
monday: says it all really?
tuesday: lost my £600 bus pass - it was found a few hours later
wednesday: tired of being neglected by 'friends'
thursday: fall out boy broke up
friday: emotionally tiring

it's not all bad. i have had some laughs this week. i'm just a little sick of never having any time to do anything that i want to do. college takes up all of my time, and i hate it. and i can't remember a time when i wasn't at least a bit tired.
i feel like society has thrown me into being an adult. i couldn't hate it much more.

in other news

• i'm reading my second book about teenagers befriending dead people this month! warn me if this is not healthy.
• i'm off to centre parks in longleat friday night, with a bunch of family which will be so much fun. because i really miss The Cousin. i hardly see her anymore. well, once a week isn't enough when i used to see her pretty much all day every day. and i know both of us are really busy and this is another thing i blame college for.
• and my friend called me at 5:30AM this morning. bear in mind that sunday is the only day i get a lie in due to work on a saturday, so i was pissed. i didn't answer, and then when i couldn't get back to sleep i began to panic that something was wrong. he left a four minute voicemail, so i listened to it. turns out he must have knocked his phone in his sleep. i am still not happy with him, and have been sending him abusive text messages ever since.
  
• and i found out that for my drama and theatre studies exam i have to act having sex on stage. um, i'm sixteen. this is not right. ugh, the play is called Rita, Sue and Bob Too, and was made into a film in the eighties i think? i really think it should be classed as live-porn to be honest.

let's hope for a better week this week. xo

nonononono

okay, i know it's a really stupid thing to get upset about. but i just read this:

Fall Out Boy have confirmed that they're going on an "indefinite break".

The Chicago band have said they'll take some time off and that they currently have no plans to reconvene. *

i don't believe it. i really really don't.
i know a lot of people hate fall out boy and think they just play 'emoshit' etcetc. well congratulations, your wish came true.
imagine your favourite band never producing music ever again. it's heartbreaking.

i have to go and cry into a pillow now.

*just incase you sadists want the link to this info, here.

my opinion on relationships

i'll get on to all the weird kind of crap that's happened to me in the past 48 hours later, but now i have something serious to say.

i need an answer to this question.
why do girls, as soon as they get a boyfriend, act all "oh my god. i can't believe i used to hang around with people before my wonderful boyfriend came along, i miss him all the time, he's so much better than my lame friends, i don't even believe i was truly living before i met him, my life was so lame, you guys are so lame, my boyfriend is so great, i just want to be with him and not you losers, oh my god, i just have to text him 24/7 and think about him all of the time, and spend all of my weekend with him and now my entire world revolves around him and his needs and i love him so much" ?


seriously?
HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?!
people become socially inept when in a relationship.
they become totally different people.
who aren't even fun anymore.
and they don't even see it.

just for the record

i have not quit.
i just took a little impromptu break.
but now i am back, messing up your screen like never before.

last week i did write a post actually, but due to bad internet connection, it wouldn't upload. by the time i had good internet connection again, it was null and void and totally pointless. so i am sorry about that. don't love me any less.

in other news

today i skipped class.
i feel terrible, and stupid and i really think my teacher is going to kick my butt tomorrow, however please allow me to explain.
so, this morning at like 7:48, i get aboard a bus which should arrive at my college about 8:26. today, it doesn't leave the bus station until about 8:00. by now, it's too late to switch buses, and we all know that we are going to be late for our first class.
upon leaving the bus station at 8:00, i remember my media studies teacher saying to the class the previous week:

'it is very important that you are not late for this lesson, i need you outside at 8:25, on-time and ready to start. do not be late. if you are planning on being late, don't bother coming in.'

class is supposed to start at 8:30.
now, at this point in time, i am sure we can all agree, this is not going to happen.
the bus eventually pulls into college at 8:43. i am 13 minutes late, by the time i get to class i will be a further four minutes late. i am not going into her class, missing the best part of half the lesson. she will murder me in front of the entire room. my measly reputation will never recover and that will be it, over.
i say to my friend: 'i don't want to go to media, she'll kill me.'

he says: 'i don't want to go to business. want to bunk?'

(fyi, that's not a euphemism, 'to bunk' means to skip class)

so instead of going to class, we go into the college library and studied. which is pretty good of two teenagers playing truant.
but i will say it again, i feel terrible and stupid for doing it. i don't recommend it at all.

what's in a cd player?

in response to my last post: i'm thinking of renaming her something with an edge. like patrick (fall out boy - duh.) or stevie (nicks)

in related news, i need fall out boy's greatest hits CD to play in my car's CD player.

yeah you heard. my car has a freaking CD PLAYER.

*tooexcited*

daisy, daisy, give me your answer dooo

two days ago i wrote a shitty emo post. and then, my internet just died.
i'm glad it did.

today i am writing a post to tell you about something magnificent that happened yesterday.

emma had left work early with her sister, so laura and i were finishing up for the day. it was just after half four, and i was cleaning the last cage as the last dog went home. laura was on the phone to emma as she didn't have a key to lock up with.
she stopped suddenly and said to me, "why are your parents sat outside in a skoda?"
i froze. they'd been looking at skoda's last week. as a car for me to learn to drive in. i replied "i don't know."
so i finished up, got my stuff and left. my dad got out of the skoda and said to me "so, do you like your new car?"
at which point my brain was going 'WTFOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGWTHOMG'
i went back inside, and said to laura 'i have a car.'

i am not even kidding you, i nearly cried.

i spent the whole of yesterday evening just jumping up and down. i can't believe that little six year old silver skoda fabia 1.2 htp classic is mine. instantly laura had named her 'Daisy'. i love her.

so i can't legally drive her for another three months - which sucks - but if anybody has a substantial amount of private land in the andover area and doesn't mind an inexperienced first time driver using it, can you email me please?

i'm going to go clean her now. xo

EDIT: she looks just like this.

Elsewhere.

okay, so i'm really scared of making these changes to my blog.

i know there's still two months for me to fully make my mind up about it, but it's safer this way. i don't need to emotionally sensor myself.
yes, i'm freaking out about it now. however i'm not a chicken, and unless something serious happens in the next few months, i will still be changing it to lookforsam.blogspot.com. it's just a scary thought.

anyway, instead of getting through most of my homework in my free period today i made a family tree, a timeline and a profile for all of my NaNoWriMo characters. it was the hardest i have worked in a long time, and i really enjoyed it. my main character is called Stevie Else. which i think is a pretty awesome name for a girl.

i'm going to go and geek out over that for a while. xo

NaNoXMasMcIntyreAlaska

i was out until 1am last night.

it was a school night.

okay so i was with my parents. whatever.

yesterday was a good day.
in english, our teacher gave us back our essays (it was one of the most incredulously boring essays i have ever written in my entire life) and then said he was going to hand out a model of what we should be aiming to write like at this stage. my essay was alright, it was marked as a B, so i felt pretty good.
he then handed out these yellow model essays to everyone, and left me until last.
he gave me my own essay on yellow paper.

i just sort of looked at it.

and then sunk down into my seat.

i just thought:
'my class is going to hate me'

nobody likes a goody-two-shoes-smartest-one-in-the-class-sits-at-the-front-smartass. and i only sit at the front because there is nowhere else to sit.
still, it was pretty cool he thought mine was the best essay. for someone who really didn't give a crap when writing it.

then i had a free period, and had some work to finish off. therefore i went to our rather huge college library. i just so happened to find 'Looking For Alaska' (by John Green - i did a review a few months ago, here) after toying with the idea, and looking through it, and starting to read it... i took it to the front desk. now it is mine forever*.

*until the 24th

i also started my NaNoWriMo novel in the car. i have a basic plot, characters, and a title. want to hear it? of course you do - Last Stop: Daytona. out of context it sounds terrible, but if i ever get round to actually writing the damned thing, it'll sound just fine.

yes i am a nerd. stfu.

and we went to see Michael McIntyre live at the O2 Arena. it was epic.

fifteen and a half thousand people were in that arena last night. and we were sat right at the top of the arena. it was high.

just a little sneak peak inside.

this was taken when we first arrived, he wasn't due on for another twenty minutes. the arena was completely full eventually.

he was so tiny from all the way up there. thank you big screens

he was extraordinarily funny, i am so glad the parents booked tickets.

afterward we drove through central London as only hours before Jim Carey switched on Regent & Oxford street's christmas lights. so magnificently magical. i adore London.it was even a little christmassy inside the O2 Arena!

i love christmas so much more than i did last year.

i am going to bed at nine tonight. because i am just that tired.

today is november 2nd. day two of NaNoWriMo.
and i won't start until wednesday. *sigh* i am behind.

so, i went to Thorpe Park's Fright Night yesterday! it was amazing. my friend Josh, his parents and his sister took me. during the day we hardly had to queue at all. after 4pm, it was packed. like big time.
me and Josh's sister went through one of the mazes. the group of people we were with made me go at the front. they were all about forty. i am sixteen. they have these actors dressed up who jump out of the dark and smoke and grab you and shout in your face. i don't scream on rides, but i screamed the entire way round this maze. it was terrifying-ly magnificent. honestly, i have never been so afraid. i loved it.

oh and tomorrow night i'm going to see Michael McIntyre live at the O2 Arena in London tomorrow night. he's a hilarious british comedian. and the O2 Arena is massive. it's the same place where i saw Fall Out Boy in March - wow, i didn't even have a blog then... - i am excited!

in closing
my name's not luna, but i sure do love good.