busy beee

i haven't blogged since monday?!

i'm sorry. don't hate me. i love you.

it has been so hectic. half term is never long enough.
tuesday i worked all day and then came home and promptly went to sleep. all these adventures are taking their tole on me. but not before i found out about a party near my college wednesday night. my friend Charlotte wanted me to go with her and it was supposed to be really good for all the freshers - however i declined. this is the problem with going to a college in a city half an hour away. i miss all the good stuff.

wednesday i got up nice and early went over to Elly's house and made her birthday cake.
it was magnificent. i iced half of it. i have never iced before. it looked okay. i was proud.
then i came home and got my hair done - again i know, i'll stop abusing it now. i figure i might as well post odd photos of me on here. because people do it to me on facebook anyway. *sigh* i kinda like having foils in my hair though. it makes me feel like a robot.transformation? no, i didn't think so. it's nice darker though. i feel more intelligent.

thursday i went into town bought some clothes, then stole my cousin Letty's old ones. she was chucking a load out, so i got lots of free jumpers! bonus!
then i went to Elly's party. which was fun if not slightly awkward on my part. i never know how to act around friends relatives. i just nod and smile like a bobble head. i like to think one day i'll have my own bobble head. then i won't have to waste energy. i'll just point to the bobble head, and that will be my response. although by then i won't be so shy. still, i want a bobble head.

today and friday i worked. although yesterday i carved my pumpkin! mines the one on the right, the cute one.

who am i kidding. mines the one on the left, with the mono-brow and moustache.

i wanted it to look evil. and a) i don't trust people with one eyebrow and b) i don't trust people with toothbrush moustaches. the candle inside the pumpkin will represent the hell burning inside it. yay!

honestly, the scariest thing i'll find in my house tonight is my statistics homework. which i am supposed to be doing if i want to go to fright night tomorrow. - did i mention that? it's going to be fantabulously amazing.

happy halloween guys!

adventure time!

this morning i woke up and thought 'i'll shower, go into town, come back, do some homework.'
how wrong i was.

basically, it started with me dragging my tired ass out of bed. because i knew if i wanted to shower and catch the bus into town, i would have to be up by nine.
so i get into the bathroom and there is no shampoo or conditioner. i go to my parents bathroom - snap. my hair was disgusting, and unless i washed it, i was not leaving the house. i went back to my bedroom and spotted a bottle of shampoo sitting in my bin - i know! i was desperate.
anyway. after showering putting on clothes etc etc. it's ten o'clock by the time i get downstairs. the time my bus leaves.
my mum says "what are your plans for today?"
me: "going into town. buying Elly's birthday present." then i left.

i got into town, and thought - no, i won't go to winchester, it's too much hastle. then i thought - ooh! i'll get some chewing gum!
after i bought the chewing gum, i went right back to the bus station and got on a bus to winchester. oh, the spontaneity.

i really enjoyed my hour bus ride through all the pretty little towns. it makes me grateful to live where i live. such a beautiful journey.


upon reaching winchester i went straight into HMV. where i found these:

and immediately added the panda one to my christmas list.

although i left this off:

an Edward Cullen doll? really? unless it's a voodoo doll then i don't want to know. and even then £13 is a little pricey.

i nearly bought these for my boss. she collects ducks and i thought they were amazing.although i did actually begin my christmas shopping. i bought a little something for my parents.

andandand, the whole reason i went shopping in the first place: Elly's birthday presents.because i couldn't find one thing, i found seven small ones. and put them in a shoebox. i love wrapping stuff, by the way.i really hope she likes it all. she's so difficult to buy for. and i put a lot of effort into it all.

i just wanted to include this photo of the most beautiful dress i have ever worn (probably) it was gorgeous. and it was £160. i'd have to wait five weeks and not spend anything to be able to buy that.

*sigh* there's always shoplifting i suppose?

presents!

bahh.

firstly, my weekend was boring. i worked and slept. so i have nothing interesting for you there.

tomorrow however i am going to winchester - alone. because The Cousin selfishly went on holiday, and i can't bring The Best Friend - to look for a birthday for The Best Friend.

i have no idea what to get her.

i know she'll appreciate something wacky/practical/cute. so i'm thinking some sort of package of things? or maybe clothes? agggh. i really have no idea. help me? suggestions please?

i also really need to start working out again before all of the christmas stuff starts happening. but i am bogged down in not being bothered. i hate myself sometimes.


also, if you live in the UK and want to help out with Children in Need, you should check these YouTube stars out - chartjackers. they're doing a wonderful project for the charity. and i must say, their song is magnificent.

andandand Daisy Bruce comes back tomorrow! i love her, and her blog - she's a brilliant writer.

i'm sorry about my disheveled blogging. i'll find something to talk about soon.

hello!

today, half term started.

not too much has happened this week. i basically worked my butt off tuesday, wednesday and thursday nights. i went back to that sweet shop and totally forgot to take pictures. apologies.

wednesday, i saw Up. and it was magnificent. if you haven't seen it - GO. now. get a friend, and go to your nearest cinema. right this second. now.

i went with The Cousin, and as we were going into the cinema, she said to me 'i read your blog today' i have never before heard those words out loud. i was so happy, i'm still geeking out over it. i love this girl so much, i cried when she told me she was going to a different college to me.

i got invited to a party yesterday - my friend Annabel's mum is going to be away, so she's having a small party next friday. the only problem is it's like forty minutes away, and there is no way my parents will let me go.

my aunt's just been round to wish my mum a happy birthday - we're going out for dinner in like three minutes - and she is super lovely. she has the best collection of horror films. ever. which is how i know we're family.

now i'm going out for dinner. i want whitebait and duck. loveyoubyex

is it just me that kind of wants to get kicked out of college?

i know that andover college will take me anyway, so it doesn't even matter if i do. i was just wondering how cool it would be to be 'that girl' who got kicked out of college. if i was going to get kicked out on purpose though, i would do something catastrophic so that everyone would remember me.

anyway. everybody seemed to like my new hair today which was lovely. i was really scared everyone was going to forget who i was.
and me and Kirsten - friend from secondary school, utterly crazy - went down to this old fashioned sweet shop which has everything. i mean everything. it is the best sweet shop ever. i am going again tomorrow. i will get photos.

i am also missing fellow blogger Daisy who is currently in the beautiful Lanzarote. she's gone for a week, and i am totally jealous. she does some fantastic writing too, so check her blog out.

i should really be learning my italian assignment right now. still, there is facebook, twitter, dailybooth and blogger to update. i am an internet nerd. and i love it.

finally, i am counting down the days until this week ends. i cannot wait for half term.

arrivederla!

ps. my boss at work has just finished her christmas shopping. i haven't yet started.

i keep having really weird dreams.

they make me stay up practically all night and leave me totally exhausted. i hate it.

i also have a ridiculous cough which makes me stupidly thirsty. i hardly ever drank water, now i'm drinking two bottles a day. and hacking my lungs out most of the time. i have to do an italian recorded assignment in two days, and i can barely hold off coughing for a couple of minutes. that is going to be difficult.

and right now i am trying desperately to be interested in an essay about Max Stafford-Clark. he is a theatre director. he is not interesting.

i have another three essays to do, two of which are media and i like writing for media, the other is for english. and have i told you how much i despise english?

also, yesterdays post is subject to change. the dates and stuff. i forgot to mention that. and i'm starting to label posts.

and tomorrow i go to college with short hair for the first time. nervous.

this is what i would have looked like in 1984 - that's nine years before i was born

shorty.

today i went to visit my secondary school.

i went with a couple of friends, Anna and Becca, we haven't been there since july and the whole experience was really surreal. all of the teachers seemed genuinely pleased that we'd come in. and all of the kids looked at us like we were celebrities! it was so weird, they were all talking and looking at us with super wide eyes. i really wanted to see my old tutor/english/media teacher, but he was off sick! annoyed.
i then had to rush home and finish an essay for media which i had to email to my teacher this afternoon. i got seven hundred words done in an hour. i was really impressed with myself. it's the first time i've been properly focused on homework for a long time.

after that my hairdresser came round. i promised you photos, so here.

yesterday, i had hair that looked like this:
(old photo but you get the gist)today, it looks like this:

sorry about the rubbish photo. it's the one bad thing about the iPhone.
do you like it?

i haven't had hair this short since i was six and cut it with plastic scissors. it took a lot of guts to get it short again. i can't wait to try out some new styles with it!

then i had to go back to the cinema for the third time this week to change my tickets. now i have to wait until next wednesday to see UP. turns out the gas leak that prevented the cinema from opening was a natural gas leak. which means it could happen any time. if it stops me seeing UP again, i am kicking some serious gas butt.

i'm also starting to get really excited about christmas. which is weird, because this time last year i hated the idea of christmas coming up fast. now i can't wait! bring on the presents!

up, up, and away

tonight, i was supposed to be seeing 'UP'

i was really excited. i'd told practically everyone i knew, and some other people i didn't know, that i was going. i have been waiting for this film since i saw it on apple movie trailers last october.
and as my mum drove me and The Cousin toward the cinema, we saw the blue lights, the police cars and the copious amounts of tape.
the cinema was closed, due to a gas leak.

i'm sorry. a gas leak? is that the best you can do?

i wanted to see this film so bad, the only thing that would have been acceptable for me not to see it would have been some sort of terrorist attack.

a gas leak, is not acceptable.

and i better get my tickets refunded. i was going to see it in 2D which was disappointing enough, now this?
oh, and as i was writing this post, the back light on my laptop screen was having some sort of aneurysm. so that's something else wrong with it. (the speakers kicked the bucket a couple of months ago, long live the headphones)
every day my life becomes that little bit worse.

also, i would like to say goodbye to a friend who is closing his blog tomorrow. he wishes to remain anonymous, however i would like to take this opportunity to say how much i enjoyed his writing and i hope he returns to it some day and to thank him for his kind words to me over these past few months. oh, and i hope that just because he quits his blog doesn't mean he stops reading mine.

tomorrow i am going to visit my secondary school, just for fun, and then i am getting a haircut. it could go horribly wrong. i will post pictures no matter what.

ps. thank you for the wonderful comments i've been left lately. honestly, they mean so much to me. like you can't even comprehend. <3

food baby...

okay, another thing i hate about college: it makes me eat so much!

i eat when i am sleepy, bored, under pressure, in social situations and when i'm hungry. i am getting like a bazillion times more calories than i am used to. last night i had a food baby (like in Juno!) due to practically a whole Terry's Chocolate orange. i am currently on my way to being morbidly obese. yay.
but thanks to this long weekend, i am going to exercise a little bit. the diet starts today.
and i'm going to see UP tonight with The Cousin! i am sooooo excited! all of my friends, who have seen it, said it is amazing. it is also supposed to be really sad. i genuinely want to enjoy the movie so much that i cry. i cannot wait!

(fyi, The Cousin actually knows about this blog now - it's a step toward the big change-around - so if you see Kayleigh wandering around be nice)

also, i am super into the tv show Being Erica at the moment. i never get to watch it monday nights - when it's aired - so i record it and watch it sunday mornings. perfect. it is such a good show though. and i love Erin Karpluk who plays the scatty protagonist. she seems really lovely.

and last night i had a dream that i lost all of my followers and only had three left.
it really scared me.

now i have to go to college. loveyoubyex

society is corrupt. fact.

i was having a pretty good day. well, it was average. apart from the crippling amount of homework.

but i did find 'Looking For Alaska' by John Green in my college library; that made me super happy.
anyway. so i get on the bus to go home. and as usual it is totally crowded. so i am stood. in boots which hate my feet - and i know i'm stupid for wearing them, but a) they keep my feet warm and b) they're fashionable.
yep. i stand for 25 minutes on a bus where the driver is out to kill us all. swinging it round corners, over-taking other buses. he is genuinely mad.
then i get off, walk all the way across town, by two tickets to see 'UP' tomorrow night - i am so excited! - walk all the way back, and get on another bus to take me home.
this bus is pretty small, and was pretty full by the time i got on it. just as the driver starts the engine, i squeezed onto a seat next to an elderly lady and rested my aching feet. then, two more elderly ladies get on. at this point there is only one more seat. one of the women sits down, and the other is looking down the bus for another seat.
now (this is an important point) there is a boy, the same age as me, sat directly opposite me. and i know for a fact he has seen this old woman, and he knows what he should do.
i get up, and say to the woman, "here, take my seat."
she replies with "no. sit down."
i say again, "no really, i can stand, i don't mind."
she looks at her friend, and looks down the bus still looking for another seat. and doesn't say a thing.
at this point i'm pretty annoyed. because she is blatantly refusing my offer. i am trying to be nice and the least she can do is accept it.
i say, rather loudly and firmly "i have just stood from winchester to andover. i will be fine."

she finally sits down and doesn't even thank me.

and the boy doesn't so much as acknowledge the scene which has taken place right in front of him.

SERIOUSLY?!

is this the kind of world we are living in?

banana pancakes!

i am starving!

this was the scene in my house the other evening. my whole family was making banana pancakes! - i think even the dog wanted to join in!


it was my brothers idea, and somehow he dragged my mum and dad into helping. i was exhausted. so i just munched on some chopped banana. which by the way, was super yummy.


and this was the finished result! american-style pancakes with chopped banana and syrup. gosh, it was absolutely scrumptious.


now i'm waiting for dinner to be ready. i can smell the curry from my bedroom, and it smells good!

cynical much?

i should be writing an amazing post about all of the wonderful things i have done today.
however my life has become decidedly lame and my exhaustion has led to more negative thoughts than i care to mention, and slight hysteria.
this is not good for being a human. but it makes me write creatively like nothing on earth.
have you noticed how cold it is lately? like seriously seriously cold? my mum actually put the heating on last night. for the first time since like april.
next week i have two and a half days off. and i will definitely be doing something worth mentioning. so look out for posts on thursday and friday!


also, it's getting to that time of year when everybody partners up. that whole i-don't-want-to-be-alone-for-the-winter-plus-christmas-time-is-all-romantic thing. ugh. fyi, i do not like public displays of affection. being at a college with like 3000+ students? it's like - get a room jeez.

but gosh, don't i love you guys. <3

ps. when i googled the title to check that i spelt cynical right because yes i do care that much. it turns out there's actually a blog called that. check it out!

blergaffnasts.

hectic. crazy. should be doing statistics, not posting. don't care.

i have only posted four times this month. which i consider not enough. i've had a pretty interesting week, so far, most of it good.
what i neglected to mention in mondays post, was that i had been to see Fame! with Kayleigh. we always arrive at the cinema super early so we can chat for awhile and not disturb anyone. i really liked the film, although there have been a lot of mixed opinions about it. i might even do a film feature, because i'm currently seeing one a week. maybe that's something you guys would be interested in?
tuesday evening, our drama and theatre class went to The Nuffield Theatre, which is in a university campus to see Dreams of Violence. it's a comedy/drama play about the recession and disastrous families. i thought it was going to be incredulously dull. however it was pretty good. there were parts which i did find funny and overall i was impressed. also, i know nobody in that class, so i just talk to everyone. which made the whole evening much more interesting.
i was a little annoyed that i had to stay behind on wednesday for a drama workshop. although that turned out to be surprisingly fun. the woman taking it was really good. me and Elly went home at the same time, and had a few minutes to kill before our bus home. so we wandered into town. we were walking to mcdonalds when we noticed this man behind us. he followed us all the way to mcdonalds. where we spotted our friends Hilary and Alex, rushed inside, and watched the guy walk around the shop staring. right. at. us.

not kidding. we were scared.

and today's been one of those days where i hate statistics because my stupid teacher won't explain anything, my english lessons are so boring i scratched off all of my nail polish and i just can't find where i want to be.

i wanted to post yesterday, but i was so exhausted and upset over ridiculous little things i decided it was better not to. i am exhausted though. i don't even want to shower. i just want to sleep.

come back summer. i miss you so much.

i am the walrus!

i read this the other day on MLIA it's too magnificent not to share.

Today, I came home to my mom scowling, my dad smirking, and my little sister grinning. Apparently, my sister got into a fight with a fellow 5th grader, saying that the Beatles pwned the Jonas Brothers. My sister and the girl argued until my sister tackled her while yelling, "I am the walrus! Goo goo g'joob!" I have never before felt like such a positive influence to my siblings. MLIA

best sister ever.

i also want to share with you a memory i have of me and my brother as really really young kids.
when we were like four/five, my mum took us to this park. it was always super busy with mums and trillions of kids and sometimes dads too.
today, we were over on the swings at the corner of the park. from here we could see our mum talking to the father of some other children.

(now bear in mind we used to watch like three different soap operas a night as children - that's where i think this idea stemmed from)

my brother turns to me and says:

'do you think that's my real dad?'

being the older sister by a whole fourteen months, i felt it my duty to tell him to stop being so stupid. however, i egged him on instead.

'i think you should go over and ask.'

so then i watched, from a safe distance, as my little brother waddled up to this random stranger, talking to my mother, and asks - rather loudly - if he is his biological father.
turns out he was just a friend from school. she took us home shortly after that.

this is the reason parents embarrass their children. because we wreaked absolute havoc upon them once.

ps. mum still doesn't know it was my idea.

Wizard.

i am currently watching Juno, on my laptop. while writing this.

i am watching it because
a) it is one of my favourite films of all time.
b) i've wanted to watch it all week.
c) it took too much effort to plug my dvd player into my tv.

and i just painted my nails perfect plum. in other words, my nails are now a really dark purple! i have no idea why they always give makeup such stupid names. Rimmel London, stop wasting your time trying to come up with clever names, and make cheaper products.

"that ain't no etch a sketch. that's one doodle that can't be undid, home skillet." i'm also watching it with the subtitles on. it started with them on, and i am terminally lazy. plus, subtitles have their advantages i guess.
this film also brings about how unused the word 'magnificent' is.
god, i love ellen page.

this blog did have a point. oh yes.

i had my new domain/blog name all figured out. and it turns out someone else has it. and they don't even USE it. *sigh*
drawing board i guess.

on a different note, here's a picture for you all.

<3

i have some big news.

okay.

firstly, i am not quitting blogging. so don't even think that.
lately i have been considering some things. and i have decided that over the christmas break there are going to be some huge changes to sydneyswift.blogspot.com.
these include a brand new layout, and a new domain name. i will keep you posted when that is going to be.
i know; this is risky. it could go one of two ways and i wouldn't be surprised if i lost followers. but this is just something i need to do.
this blog is still a baby, only seven months old! so, i haven't quite found out what i want to do with it yet and it is definitely subject to change.
you will probably notice some gradual changes leading up to christmas, and this is just all in the grand scheme of things. and i won't change the layout or domain name until then.

i'll keep you posted!

birthdays, weekends, and weather

i don't know how being incredibly negative earned me followers. but i don't care. if you follow me, i love you <3
and we get closer to a giveaway

it is cold! like really really cold. like eight degrees in the morning cold. i am not used to this temperature. and i have no winter wardrobe. oops.
although i do have ski socks, and six scarves (i honestly have no idea why so many...) and various hats, and EARMUFFS. when it snows, i will be wearing these. fact. if it does not snow this winter i will be very very sad. snow is my all time favourite weather.

i need your help!
scenario: best friend (female) birthday in three weeks. what do i get her?!

she's into anything weird, wacky, original, you name it. suggestions would be much appreciated.

i got my second hpv jab yesterday and my arm is killing me as expected.

and on a final random note. have you ever noticed how incredibly dull the news is?